In my heart I  have not been  kind.

Kindness: in your heart wanting to help others more than yourself 

One of the reasons you may be struggling in life is you maybe struggling wanting to help others. 

I believe if you are struggling being kind, this can be because you do not know the truth about God. 

This can be because of communication about  God that is not true. This can be because you have had God misrepresented to you.  

 I believe if you know in your heart how kind God is,  you will be more able to represent God's kindness. 

  I believe if you know how much God wants to help you, you will be more able to be kind to those you may have struggled being kind to. 

God in his heart wants to help you for no other reason than He wants to help you. He willingly wants to help you more than He wants to help Himself. 

If you have hurt yourself by not being kind towards anyone, God wants to help you. He wants you to turn back to wanting to help others in your heart to the same extent He wants to help you. 

Jeremiah 9:24 but let the one who boasts boast about this: that they have the understanding to know me, that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,” declares the Lord.

1 Samuel 20:14 But show me unfailing kindness like the Lord’s kindness as long as I live, so that I may not be killed,

2 Samuel 9:3 The king asked, “Is there no one still alive from the house of Saul to whom I can show God’s kindness?” Ziba answered the king, “There is still a son of Jonathan; he is lame in both feet.”

Ezra 9:9 

Though we are slaves, our God has not forsaken us in our bondage. He has shown us kindness in the sight of the kings of Persia: He has granted us new life to rebuild the house of our God and repair its ruins, and he has given us a wall of protection in Judah and Jerusalem.

Job 6:14 “Anyone who withholds kindness from a friend forsakes the fear of the Almighty.

Job 10:12 You gave me life and showed me kindness, and in your providence watched over my spirit.

Isaiah 54:8 In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment, but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you,” says the Lord your Redeemer.

Jeremiah 31:3 The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.

Acts 4:9 If we are being called to account today for an act of kindness shown to a man who was lame and are being asked how he was healed,

Acts 14:17 Yet he has not left himself without testimony: He has shown kindness by giving you rain from heaven and crops in their seasons; he provides you with plenty of food and fills your hearts with joy.”

Acts 27:3 The next day we landed at Sidon; and Julius, in kindness to Paul, allowed him to go to his friends so they might provide for his needs.

Acts 28:2 The islanders showed us unusual kindness. They built a fire and welcomed us all because it was raining and cold

Ephesians 2:7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus.

Ephesians 4:32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Colossians 3:12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.