I have acted like I was holy, spiritual nice, etc while thinking and doing things that were not.  I have tried to make myself look more 'decent' than another.    

Religion, the accepted insanity. 

Humans cannot change Who God Is. They can represent (or misrepresent) Him.

If God is anything like what some religions say He is like, He isn't worth knowing. Why would you want to know a psychopath? The people who follow the religion are a guide to  the apparent truth of the religion . For God to be worth knowing  the individuals Who claim to represent Him must be worth getting to know. If they are not worth getting to know, chances are pretty high that the God of that religion is not worth getting to know. 


If you get a sense that the people have a genuine love towards you that is not faked, chances are that the religion is probably true. 

John 13:35

By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

Romans 12:9

Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil; cling to what is good.

Matthew 23:28

In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.

Luke 16:15

He said to them, "You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of others, but God knows your hearts. What people value highly is detestable in God's sight.

Galatians 2:13

The other Jews joined him in his hypocrisy, so that by their hypocrisy even Barnabas was led astray.

1 Peter 2:1

Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind.

Ephesians 4:25

Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor, for we are all members of one body.